RP [The Call of the Wind]

Yessss...i decided to go and try out my new baby. It wasn't easy for starters like me. For i had been the subject all along. Ahaha...one disadvantage detected *gasp*....And so i text yume (since i thought she must have nothing to do during the weekends) and about half and hour, we got ourselves strolling here and there in titiwangsa, finding good spots to shoot.

Actually we took like more than 70+ pix but only 9 came out well i think?haha OTL. Pls excuse my noob editing and harsh lighting. Now 9am is just like 1pm =__=;  nwys, will try improve


Model: Yume (awww..so she does miss photoshoots >D)
Place: Titiwangsa
Photog: Me

'It's the sound of the wind....I can hear it'

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'Can you hear it too?'

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               'Cause you're the one who taught me...'                    

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'I shall wait for you..until you come...'

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'So we can spend our precious time like we used do...'

~END~

AND  in the end, he didn't come...LOL so we end up playing in the park instead  8D~~~~

Thanks for watching ~~~~

RP [Synchronicity]

And so, it was time to say sayonara to my guitar TT__TT well...the reason is that i need $$ to buy a new one haha. AND still, my technique suck =D; It feels great to hear that she is now safe with her new adopted daddy LOLOL...well, at least she's been taken good care off. Not like me....i just broke her neck few months ago. Gommenasai..i didnt mean to! D=

A photoshoot done quite some time. For the last time. Ah...please ignore my kinda-pale face. It was so last minute that i didnt even put makeup on (except bits of eyeliner) OTL

Model: Heiji/space @ me
Photographer: FMdelight
Band members: Yume, orochi warrior, misaki.

...DEDICATED FOR BOTH OF US...

love u so much *__*

Thanks for watching!~~~ ^___^~~

Cosplayer vs Photographer O_O

So yeah, the question is : WHY THE HELL AM I TURNING AWAY FROM COSPLAY?

Arghfhfhrhhrhfhkjkjfg...alot of similar questions about this sia xDDD Honestly, i dont know what to say. i dont even know where to start OTL so lemme just start with what i think bout it and u'll get the flow ^^; 

COSPLAY. It's not a whatever-u wanna call-it hobby (it's not that simple k). Not just to be the model and show off. Not just to tell the world how big ur pocket hole is because of it. To tell the truth, i have grown to understand that cosplay is not just a show. I didn't show cosplay but I feel cosplay..I cosplay to feel. It's not that ordinary feel fun/enthuthiast cosplay. It's something else. Something that cnnt be described. Something that made me wanna feel it again and again. Can't stop. Can't think anything else. Not even a second. And there was no time for others- I WAS ADDICTED.

March 2010, admitted to the hospital. Finally i can stop abusing myself. A bit more dehydration one of my kidney would've be gone (LUCKILY MY KIDNEY IS FINE 8D). It made me cried that night to realise how important cosplay was to me and there's no second chance. I would probably start killing myself once more and so i decided to let go. I felt my heart being torn apart (felt worst- more than being dumped by ur loved ones). It hurts badly. Really. And the only thing i can remember about how i feel at that time was...

LOST.

I didn't know what to do. Clueless. And it's the worst feeling ever. To think that im loosing something. Im loosing people around me. My dearest friends. Seeing each other but there'll be a gap between us and i can just feel it. I must lie if i say 'i dont wanna cosplay'. Seeing a cosplayer only made my heart ache. but I just can't. There's a barrier and im fully aware of it. I cant live without anything related to cosplay. I still wanna feel it...feel cosplay...So i will try to CAPTURE that 'feelling' in other people from now on.

Haha...hope this clears bit why im retiring ^__^

I love cosplay. I really do. But i love myself even more...<3 <3 <3

current mood:

Watashi ++space++ 8D

WOKAY, call me space/heiji 8D

FINALLY, a new blog where i can talk shit and craps hahahhaha!!!!!!~~ 8D anyway, will also post other things like photos of me/me camwhoring =3=.../bits of mah previous cosplay photos/future other cosplay photos/other photos/stalking photos/travels/what i bought/etc etc zzzzzz....

Ok that is me =3= *points above pic* Actually im not that pretty. It must be the cam/lighting problem somewhere xDDDDDDD



I like to make friends. Animanga related only. Well to tell the truth, i kinda ignore people without this criteria LOL. Gommen, I was born like this. Can't be helped =3=;;; Anyway, nice to meet u people out there!~~ 8D